I've thought about this. I actually do not think I'm the smartest person in the room, hell two of the people in my direct team are definitely smarter than me. I think I have really good systems that allow me to consistently solve problems and write code.
On the loneliness front, I meant in the scope of working. I have four kids, I am everything BUT lonely with them.
However, I do agree that aside from work and one of my hobbies I have neglected my health, specifically I need to eat healthier, exercise more and lose some weight. I've debated working one hour less than I'm supposed to just so that I can exercise daily, but I find myself worrying that without me things will fall apart.
Logically, I know that's not true. If I died today, the company or my team would not collapse. Nevertheless I feel that if I'm supposed to be working from 8-5 (which 1 hour lunch), I need to actually be working.
1) food: this guy Rip is truly a lifechanger (esp if since you're in the zone when it would be smart to look after your heart: https://mealplanner.plantstrong.com/
I don't have any career advice for you, leaving is one option but consider that it would great for you to "skill-up" the people around you so when you leave it isn't like they lost their Golden-Boii, but rather bow out like a Bob Iger at Disney & leave them with a glorious future blah blah
On the loneliness front, I meant in the scope of working. I have four kids, I am everything BUT lonely with them.
However, I do agree that aside from work and one of my hobbies I have neglected my health, specifically I need to eat healthier, exercise more and lose some weight. I've debated working one hour less than I'm supposed to just so that I can exercise daily, but I find myself worrying that without me things will fall apart.
Logically, I know that's not true. If I died today, the company or my team would not collapse. Nevertheless I feel that if I'm supposed to be working from 8-5 (which 1 hour lunch), I need to actually be working.
Re eating/getting healthier,
1) food: this guy Rip is truly a lifechanger (esp if since you're in the zone when it would be smart to look after your heart: https://mealplanner.plantstrong.com/
2) Lose weight (this approach might be appealing to your engineer'y instinct): https://www.fourmilab.ch/hackdiet/
3) Exercise:
- Warm up (DO THESE): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QWyyHfARNI
- Try to get through a round of this w/ good form + then try to do 2, 3, etc: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTSIqbuZC0Y&t=369s
I don't have any career advice for you, leaving is one option but consider that it would great for you to "skill-up" the people around you so when you leave it isn't like they lost their Golden-Boii, but rather bow out like a Bob Iger at Disney & leave them with a glorious future blah blah