The ketamine experience was far worse than my fall and any subsequent pain I experienced, and I would gladly take the pain of the reduction over the ketamine any day. It basically felt like I was dying and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Think of the hypnosis scene from "Get Out" where you can feel your consciousness slipping away but you're not asleep either. I could hear everything happening around me but couldn't move a muscle or feel anything. My perception of time went out the window and it felt like I was in an empty void for an eternity when it was only a few minutes.
I thought I couldn't talk because I couldn't feel my mouth or move any other muscles, but realized I was actually speaking my thoughts after I heard a friend in the room responded to something I thought in my mind.
Overall, 0/10 would not do it again and the thought that police use it to pacify someone during an arrest is sickening.
And it comes in waves -- just when you think you're coming out of it, it pulls you back down.
I swore off ketamine for life after that and don't plan on ever touching it again. I would take a bad comedown from stimulants over that. I would take the feeling of hopelessness, anhedonia, and thorough depression from a bad MDMA comedown any day. To be fair, both things only happen if you do too much, it's avoidable, and it was entirely my fault for not weighing the dose.
And I still think therapeutic ketamine for depression should be studied and trialled and legal. But still, K-holing was an absolutely horrifying experience and I don't recommend it to anyone for any reason.
And it probably was only not even worse because I was also on MDMA.
Just to expand: there are many excellent films which are not "family friendly" only because of 1 or 2 nude scenes which aren't even germane to the overall plot in many cases. I often wished there was a tool or SaaS that could detect such scenes and cut or blur them out. Would save a lot of manual processing.
Surely a much easier thing to do would be to simply stop being offended by the human body? Just watch the movies anyway. Your kids won't explode if they see a boob.
This reminds me of when I went thru all different low calorie sweeteners to put in coffee until I realized this is a problem I created myself and coffee is actually better if I just get used to having it plain.