I'd recommend Tim Urban's (of waitbutwhy fame) new book, What's Our Problem. It's a deep dive on a lot of these things in the last decade and how we ended up where we are now.
That's not to say you won't be twice as good of a drawer as you are now, in 2 years of serious practice.
But if you're measuring yourself against people who have spent their entire lives working on a thing... it's going to take some time to get to that level.
It's an endless road but it's a damn fun one.